There was a conversation going on inside my head.
Do I have to write this blog?
It would be good if you did.
Does it have to be personal?
That would be good.
But it hurts. It is about family.
They hurt me.
The voice of Robert D Hales joined the conversation.
“We can’t hurt a stranger as much as we can a loved one. We know just what to do to hurt our companions, parents, or brothers and sisters. We know where they are vulnerable. We know how they can be hurt the most by our actions.”[i]
I was feeling uncomfortable. So I hurt them, too. But I had good reasons.
I did what I did because I was right!
This time the voice of Deiter F. Uchtdorf joined in.
“It seems to be a trait of humanity to assume that we are right even when we are wrong.”[ii]
Somebody needed to do something!
Somebody already has.
“And he shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people.”[iii]
I just wanted to make them do what is right. But all my conversations and e mails, my sleepless nights, and my attempts to apply legal remedies really didn’t accomplish anything, except to destroy relationships, and set a very bad example for my children. Now they are hurting in their own relationships.
Let it go.
Let it go?
Let the pain go. The Savior has already taken it upon himself. Why do you want to drag it back?
So do I have to forgive them?
If the Savior has already taken all the sickness, all the pains and afflictions and temptations, there really isn’t anything left to forgive them for, is there?
As soon as they repent, right?
He is the only One who can judge repentance.
When someone is doing something wrong, I’m not supposed to do anything??
He is the only One to judge what He has taken upon Himself. It all belongs to Him and He will do what needs to be done. That is His job.
The voice of Robert D Hales came again.
“Isn’t it true that God, our Father, and his Son grieve when we sin? When we fail to be obedient and accept the atoning sacrifice of our Lord, aren’t we hurting Him who loves us most?”[iv]
One tiny whisper remained.
So what is my job?
“Beloved, if God so loved us, we ought also to love one another.”[v]